sometimes you just let go.: Archive

Jan 23rd

Jan 1st

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Dec 31st

I hate that everything is only on your time. I wish I just had the guts to cut you off. But I am weak. I told myself I would never be that girl again. I am being that girl again.

Dec 12th

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Sep 21st

12,996 notes

Things were simpler.

Since I met him I haven’t uttered the words “I hate men” because I thought I knew something different for the first time in years, but I was obviously just another fool for another game. Instead I wasn’t the cat this time and I was the mouse. I’ve always been the one to make a mess of everything. Slowly manipulating every person I had met in to believing I was...

Feb 12th

I find it hard to write out my feelings when I would like to publicly state them. It’s not something I want to hide behind fake walls. Love. What a complicated, screwed up way to feel. The last 24 hours has brought up so many haunting memories and feelings that I don’t know how to justify anymore. I only know what my heart feels. Wounds have been ripped open and my heart feels like...

Jan 31st

Jan 7th

12,278 notes

Jan 3rd

I need to find a new hobby. As well as take photos again. I miss it.

Jan 3rd

I’m just never happy.

Oct 11th

Maybe, I'm just not ready

I don’t update this often, but I felt compelled to be honest with myself tonight about how I feel with the events of recent times. I filter through relationships like I filter through my clothes. One outfit change after the other. I’m not talking just about emotional relationships with men, or even woman, but people you consider(ed) friends. I find room for people I shouldn’t...

Aug 24th

I am Christina Marie Hollis: Something every girl... →

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life… Truth.

Jul 24th

Jun 15th

Dear self,

it’s your birthday.

Mar 23rd

Jan 22nd

394 notes

Nov 30th

well my ex fiance is getting married. cool. we’ve only been broken up a year and like 3 months…. and he’s known her like 6 months. i feel disgusting. thanks facebook for the valuable information.

Nov 20th

Oct 30th

Oct 5th

572 notes

Sanity

I can’t justify how I feel anymore. I feel like I am constantly defending myself to myself. I just want for once to feel like I matter. For things to go as planned or at least in the right direction. I look in the mirror and I see a different person, someone I use to be, and the person I am now. I miss Joseph every single day even more lately. I don’t know if closure exists with us,...

Oct 5th

thelovelybones: vampiresinlove:fangtastic: Graduated High School. Kissed someone. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Spun turn tables. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time with out sleep. Lied to someone. Been dumped. Snorted...

Oct 4th

3,144 notes

Sep 23rd

262 notes

Sep 6th

Couldn’t you have just died rather then moved on?

Sep 2nd

And thank you Brand New for yet another amazing cd. I apologize that I downloaded it before it was released. But I promise I will buy it.

Aug 30th

I leave for Atlanta in less then 15 days and I wont be back for 3 weeks. Thank god!!

Aug 30th

Aug 25th

This Goes Out To All The Girls

birdyyyy: selalovesparis: finallyseeing: leahcreates: ambernicolek: skysignal: (And partly to All The Guys Who Should Know Better) Here’s to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check your cellphone the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with...

Aug 22nd

First of all, I’d like to say, some people are so full of shit now. Second, death. rip poppy. It’s going to be a long, long week.

Aug 19th

“We never are what we intend, or invent, ‘Cause I make little lies and then I...”

– - Brand New

Aug 16th

Aug 12th

oh life.

Jul 27th

I need music to work out to

Jul 14th

To do

Clean and finish unpacking my room Hang shower rod and curtains Go for a jog with my main man, Buster Wash clothes and so much more. Hip hop class tomorrow. Joining a gym and getting in shape and maybe looking in to taking some yoga classes. I’m starting to feel better, at least I’m less tense, but still stressed.

Jul 13th

I think I’m going to cave.

Jul 8th

I’d first like to state that writing a PUBLIC journal entry for personal writing is asking for more drama, and more issues regardless if you think so or not. I understand the idea of public writing, for someone to see, because I have done it, but don’t state that you are not looking to cause more drama. So I will openly state that this is directed to you Katy. From MY opinion, you did...

Jul 8th

god do i hate drama and people who put their nose where it doesn’t belong, and the fact you can’t put your anger down without people shitting violently all over you.

Jul 7th

This is my letter

When you feel your whole life you do nothing but try to fight off your demons, but at some point you realize you can’t fight them anymore. They take over. The saying is true, “In the end you have no one, no one to trust but your family.” I don’t know what I did to deserve this, or to cause this much pain to my family, to know for my stupid actions, an indecisive decision...

Jul 7th

Alcohol is my best friend. Forever will you be there.<3

Jul 3rd

I think I’m ending some friendships. I think it is time to start a new life. A place. A new time. NYC I’ll see you in 2 months for however long it takes. So glad to be finally leaving this place and all the people who have no ambition to do anything with their lives and for those who think they do, I’m sorry, but you don’t. I’m still breathing.

Jul 1st

I cannot wait to be living in NYC with Christina and TJ. I cannot wait to go to Seattle in a few weeks and visit TJ and Anthony better come to Florida soon or at least visit when I go back to NYC. My vacation was a joke. Oh well, atleast I know I have some amazing friends and saw some amazing people while I was up north.

Jun 28th

Jun 25th